Feeling Pretty Darn Good

I've got to say that I'm backing meds.  It's been a great week.  The purging has only just begun. Lost items have been found, things have been repaired and I've even managed to take down the last of the Christmas decorations.  I've cried once or twice, but nothing close to the way I was last week. It feels good to get back to living life. 

I've never been much of a pill person, for illness or recreation.  I fight through pain, forget to take my vitamins, and usually skip a day when I'm taking antibiotics.  As far as anti-depressants go, I'll have to admit that the warnings on those commercials make me a little nervous. At some point though, I had to accept that things couldn't continue the way they were. I gave in and asked for help... and I'm ok with that.

Let's Face It

A few months ago, I bought a blu-ray player.  It didn't take long for it to start malfunctioning and typically, I didn't take it back until now.  Of course, I was a little irked that it had to be sent back for repairs and would take 2-4 weeks.  I shuddered at the thought of having to go without Netflix streaming in my comfy and safe bedroom.  I took a deep breath, considered my options and  decided that I would move the Wii from the living room.   My poor dusty Wii, a virtual stranger to me after 2 years of ownership.  It was my 9 year old niece who showed me how to upload pictures to it.

And,  I sit here now, installing and updating, adding new devices and browsing.  Checking out the bells and whistles that I overlooked before.  I think that I may actually enjoy this better....  Maybe the "bad" thing that had irked me earlier was actually a good thing.  Maybe I needed to get to know my Mii a little better.

I could say "Everything happens for a reason" or  "God moves in mysterious ways",  that something good always from bad,  or blame Karma or Fate....  Let's face it, life is made up of good and bad times, and that's just the way life is.  Eventually, depending on attitude or resilience or the strength of our meds,  we recover and move on.

I don't think that I can say I recovered quite yet, but I think that I'm ready to start seeing the good.   Maybe I'm ready to get to know Me a little better.